Y Tuesday, June 19, 2007Y
10:26 PM
18 June 2007, MondaySupposed to go for an interview at 10am, together with Joanne at "Loreal"...But received a sms early in the morning from her, that interview was changed to 3pm instead...
Told Laogong that my interview time has changed, got up at 11am to prepare myself...Waited for Laogong to come fetch me for breakfast cum early lunch, was till 1pm did Laogong reached my place...Due to me, getting the "PMS" these few days, Laogong suffered from my bad temper again...We had our meal quietly, or rather because it was I, who ignored Laogong...Noticed that, Laogong's mood wasn't good too and seemed pretty upset, but I didn't cared less cuz I wanted my temper to subside...
Laogong fetch me down to "Lakeside" Mrt station after, I was calmer...Hugged and gave Laogong a kiss, before leaving to take the train...Noticed Laogong's being very forlorn but I still didn't asked, cuz I presumed Laogong was upset because I've throw tantrums again...
Took the train down to "Jurong East" station, waited down there for Joanne to come...I had reached there early, sooo I gamed on my PSP while waiting...Joanne arrived shortly, and we both took another train down to "Somerset"...
Both of us reached the place for interview, right on time...Emmy wasn't in, sooo we looked for the receptionist...Filled up the interview forms as given by the receptionist, then Joanne and I chatted for a while after we're done filling up the forms...
A pretty lady came soon after, and asked one of us in for the interview...Joanne went along with her and came out after 5minutes...Joanne told me, the lady didn't ask her much but briefed her on the job scope and training details...Then, I was up next...My interview was also done in just 5minutes, all was like what Joanne had told me...We've gotten the jobs for part-time beauty advisers, just like that...Nothing about our particulars were asked, nor were we asked on questions regarding our previous jobs...
Training's scheduled to be on this Friday, at the same place, where we had our interview...Hope's it gonna be fun and not just pure training all the way...Joanne and I didn't leave the office after our interview, but waited for Emmy to come back...It was around few minutes later that Emmy showed up, she told us both quite a lil' bout' the "Loreal" company and also some other stuffs...Joanne and I left after Emmy was done, we both took the train back together...
It was already 4plus near 5pm, when we've reached "Jurong East" station...Joanne left, to switch trains back to her place while I continued, onto the last stop...Got to Laogong's house at 5.30pm, went into his room, stayed beside and watched him sleeping...Woke him up at 6.15pm then I napped a lil'...Laogong's still looking very forlorn, thought it probably was still because of me...
We got outta his house at 7pm, we hugged and kissed each other then Laogong broke the news to me...Wei Cheng's gone...I was taken aback after hearing Laogong told me, that Wei Cheng's committed suicide by jumping off his block...I realised then, why Laogong's been looking sooo upset for the whole day...Laogong left after telling me the news, could tell that he's feeling very bad bout' the news...I smsed Laogong and told he, I was apologetic for throwing tantrums at him in the morning, and Laogong said he didn't blamed me...
Wei Cheng's like a close brother cum friend to Laogong, I knew it very well...Even thou' Laogong berates Wei Cheng for being useless, I knew deep down Laogong still cares quite a lot for this brother cum friend of his...It was a shock to Laogong and me, that Wei Cheng's came to such an end...It still is, now...
I waited for my bus opposite Laogong, saw him boarded his company bus, with his almost lifeless expressions...I don't know what to do or say...
Went to Ah ger's place after, went to Jurong Point, with her 2 cute cousins and Jieyi...Ah ger's cousins went for "Lan" gaming while 3 of us went for pool session...Left after an hour, had our late dinner at "Long John's Silver"...
Took the bus back after everything, saw them left and reached home around 10plus...
19 June 2007, Tuesday...
Laogong did not "OT" for his work, upon my request...Came to my house and woke me up at 9plus in the morning...I was totally weak in my knees, kept on falling and couldn't even stand still...Laogong had to hold on to me for some time, before I regained my strength...Laogong appeared much better than he was, the previous day...I got myself prepared, then we're off to Jurong Point to get "McDonald's" breakfast for ourselves, his sister and mother...
Laogong and I, scouted around JP for present "ideas" after having bought all the food...Thought of getting a lil' present for Laogong's mum cuz it's her birthday, today...Didn't buy anything at all, in the end and we went back to his place...Laogong decided to give his mum some money, sooo she could buy whatever she fancies...
Laogong's mum had just went to the market for groceries, when we've reached home...Sooo Laogong, his sister and I started our breakfast ahead without their mum...I asked Laogong bout' Wei Cheng and he began feeling sad again, told me everything bout' Wei Cheng's death...I felt sad too...It was due to depression that Wei Cheng's been suffering from, that made him did the ultimate painful decision...Still, both Laogong's sister and I reckoned, that Wei Cheng's too foolish...Laogong made no comments, and I could tell that he's been feeling very sorry for his good brother cum friend's death...
Laogong's sister and I started another conversation, on jokes and riddles...Thought Laogong's mood might turn better, but it was still the same...Their mum came back shortly, Laogong continued on telling bout' Wei Cheng's stuffs but I stopped him from going on...It's supposed to be their mum's happy day, it's not good for her to hear this...
Laogong cleared up everything after our breakfast, he helped his mum with the household chores and did his prayers...I rested inside Laogong's room and used his laptop...Laogong came inside after, preparing to go to sleep...I played some new songs on my handphone, for Laogong to listen and he began to let his mind wonder...Laogong sat up on his bed and hugged me with one of his arms, tightly...I knew then, Laogong's thinking bout' Wei Cheng again...
My tears dropped upon sensing Laogong's sadness as well, both of us teared unknowingly...I tried comforting Laogong, wiped off his tears and told him to rest but he refused and continued hugging me tightly...Moments later, Laogong stood up and beckoned for me, to go out for a breather with him...The atmosphere around us, appeared sooo dull and full of sorrows as Laogong fetch me on his bicycle down to the place, where Wei Cheng had made his decision...
All of a sudden, I felt very guilty cuz it's was me, who stopped Laogong from getting in touch with Wei Cheng, most of the times...I hated Wei Cheng for leading Laogong astray in the past ,when they always hang out together...I forbade Laogong from lending Wei Cheng cash, to tide through his poor times...I denied of Wei Cheng's exsistence, due to the fact that he's a lousy hooligan, with no means of supporting himself and not intending to do so...
Perhaps, I've been overly-prejudiced against Wei Cheng...Laogong began to go out with Wei Cheng lesser cuz he knew, I hated him hanging out with Wei Cheng, thus, avoided him more...
Perhaps, I shouldn't have think of Wei Cheng in a ultra negative way...If I had allowed Laogong, to contact him more often...Things might not turn out to be this way...
Offerings made to Wei Cheng under his block, could be seen from a short distance away...I could sense Laogong's feelings very strongly, as thou' I was feeling it myself too...I knew Laogong feels that, it's partly his fault for ignoring Wei Cheng...I too, felt the same cuz I was the person to cause this, to happen indirectly...
Wei Cheng's not a person, who's very dear to me...In fact, he was somebody that I detest sooo much...Yet, I cried when I see the offerings placed there...I felt sorry for him very much, I felt guilty partly for denying him, the chance to keep Laogong as his only friend...
Laogong and I went back to his place after staying there, for few minutes...Laogong teared lil' by lil' while riding...I tried my best, consoling him and but our hearts still felt heavy, even after we've left the place...Laogong and I got back to his house, and we rested on his bed...We hugged each other and fell asleep...
End~~
PS: I've never imagined, how it's like to lose someone, who used to be sooo closed to you...Seeing Laogong like this, however, made me felt it...Life's really a fragile thing...You cant amend, whatever has happened...You can only feel sad and helpless, after the incident took place...
I would like to lend this opportunity here: Readers of my blog, please join me in a minute of silence (even if you don't know who Wei Cheng is), to moan for him one last time...
May Wei Cheng Rest In Peace...God Bless him...My condolences to Wei Cheng's family...
It's the least, I could do...Thanks to all my readers, for doing sooo...Your kindness in joining me, is deeply appreciated...
I hope, there would no be news of such incidents happening to anyone I know...The feeling's a very deep one...I hope for Laogong and myself to get over it soon...I hope for Wei Cheng to be a happy person in his next life...
My IMEEM player has been removed by myself, temporarily...It will be up when mood is better...