I quarrelled with Laogong again...Haiz...I'm sick and tired of quarrelling already but I always could'nt control my temper well enough...I'm a demanding girlfriend, that I'm very sure of...Perhaps, I've always been necglected in the past so when I have a reliable person to lean on, I began to put my everything, my wishes, my standards into this person...And, guess who's the guy? Correct!! Tommy, is it...
I know I've done a lot of hurtful things to Laogong...Sorry, Laogong! I still love you very much...After the quarrel, I began to think back and thought a lot about how I behaved...Laogong is already a 100% good guy who eventually, will turn out to be a prospectic, faithful, caring, understanding and responsible husband...I'm very sure of the above sentence that I've typed, "God" has given me a precious "gem" but I did'nt knew how to treasure this "gem" of mine...I demanded a lot from Laogong and most of the times or should I say all the time, Laogong gave in to me...
In the past, long before I've met Laogong, my life has been in a mess...I've not led a "happy" life, my family had problems which are always not resolved...I've seen, been with quite a number of friends...Some really cared while some really disappointed me...I've also been into a couple of relationships which now if I reminsence, I would laugh at myself...I made a fool out of myself, same as to some poor guys whom I've never taken seriously...I had no specific goal to follow, but only led a aimless living in this world...I would always admire other couples I saw on the streets, though I'm accompanied by some great friends but deep inside I've always longed for a companion...Friends could'nt possibly be with you as and when you might need them, sure they can comfort you when you're down but love for a friend is always different from love for that special person...
Laogong and I have been together for a year and half now, and it's still counting...I have a goal now, which you might consider quite silly but this goal of mine, is every girl's dream...Just that, it depends the time...You should be clear about my goal right now, huh? Yes, I wanna get married to Tommy...This is my goal, or wish you might like to think as...So, I thought back and then I think about my future with Laogong in it...I knew it deep down that if I want to achieve this, I should really do something about my temper, character, behaviour...If I continue going on at this rate, as if ordering and pushing Laogong here and there...I would bound to lose my "gem" and may never get to retrieve it...This precious "gem" of mine would then be handed to someone else who might be able to treasure it more than I do..."SHE", perhaps would treat Laogong more importantly...
Of course, I do not want this to happen!! But, I know it will if I continue being so hot-headed...Whenever I quarrelled with Laogong and I mentioned some very serious issues, I would always picture Laogong with another woman...I, no longer involved in his life seeing Laogong hugging another woman, laughing with her...Smiling at her, holding her hands, looking at her with love-lorn eyes, kissing her lips...My tears would roll down unexpectedly, I always regretted my words after I thought about this...I know that I would never be able to wish to see this happen, I just cannot accept this...So, I hope from now on, I could do my best in controlling my temper...Although, this is my nature but somehow or rather, I've gotta do it cuz I don't want my nightmare to come true...
I know, Laogong...You will definately read my blog...Then come ask or talk to me afterwards...Cuz this is always what you do after you've read my blog entries...I know that I've been a bad Laopo to you...I've said a lot of mean things but the last thing I ever not want to see, is you leaving me...I don't know how to apologise to you for doing you so much hurt...Thank you, for not walking out on me and still loving me...I love you too...
Laogong came to my house and woke me up, then brought me to buy breakfast back to his house to eat...After we've finished our food, we went to sleep or rather I accompanied Laogong to sleep for a short while before I prepare to go for work...This day is my first day of work at Zouk, WineBar...I slept together with Laogong then woke up at 3pm to put on my make-up, dressed myself in black pants and a printed racer-back tee then headed off to Jurong Point...I bought black socks which were required for when working at "Ice Lemon Tea" then took the Mrt to Lakeside and met up with Robby and Diven, of which Diven was also going for his first day of work... We then met up with WeiChee and together the four of us took the train down to Tiong Bahru, and met up with another newcomer "Shun Yong" who was WeiChee's friend...We all took the bus down to Zouk and then began our first day of work... Diven, Shun Yong and me were then briefed by Kelvin Cheah, the captain of WineBar...She bought us in and out of Zouk through various "Exits", showed us where was or rather how "Velvet" and "Phuture" looked like...Issued us 2 polo tees, an apron and a name tag each, then also told us what was the first thing to do when we come for work...Kelvin also showed us the lockers room and told us which doors in Zouk are to be opened and not to be opened...I think the whole briefing took us about 2hours to finish and from there, Dennis took over... Dennis is also one of the seniors at WineBar, he passed us each a set of notes and roughly informed us on the drinks served there...Dennis also told us the prices for various drinks and the promotions which goes on in WineBar, then he explained to us the "Dos" and "Don'ts" which we're supposed to observe and finally yet another briefing was over...All 3of us had a buddy system to follow, Shun Yong with WeiChee, Diven with Luther and lastly, Dennis with me...Although this so-called buddy system is to have the more experienced staff to follow us most of the time, but I was left to fend for myself most of the time!! Okay, well at least it was not really that bad cuz I still had Robby's company...LOLs...Dennis would only come to check on me the first few times then disappeared, and I was to do whatever I can do...Kelvin also came out quite often to check on me and Diven, she kept telling me not to be afraid and try to look out for customers' needs... On the whole, I think the one who probably had helped me the most was Robby and Luther...I approached the 2of them whenever I encountered any problems, and my time passed quickly...My first day of work turns out to be quite alright, I supposed...I'm not sure of what the seniors think of me but I think that it was pretty much okay...The WineBar closed at 3am, and we locked up the seats and tables outside then went inside and waited for Elsie
Photos, to feast on...Next, my entry for the night...lols... 28october2005, Friday Laogong's off day again!! Laogong's grandmother just came to his house and she is going to spend the next 2weeks there, due to an eye operation she just had...Laogong told me that we've gotta be more careful in the things we do, I could'nt go to Laogong's house and accompany him to sleep...Shrugs* Well, never mind about that for the time being...Back to my entry...lols...
Laogong asked me where did I wanted to go, I had in my mind the place already but Laogong stopped me from saying then he typed it out on his handphone and showed it to me...We both had the same place " Orchard" in mind!! hahas...Now that's what I call, telepathy!! But then, we decided to go to Plaza Singapura instead cuz it was kinda late already...
The first thing we did when we've reached "PS" was to eat!! We were both so hungry, Laogong asked me what I wanted to eat and I said Pizza Hut!! lols...I wanted to try the new pizza they had cuz I did'nt got to try it the other time when it was out, and Laogong readily agreed...We got our seats very fast, then we settled down and drank our soups...By the time, our pizza was ready, there was already a long queue of people outside Pizza Hut...hehehe...Luckily, Laogong and I were wise enough...Laogong and I had a really full dinner then we got out of there quickly so as to let others our seats, we window-shopped around "PS" then thought of watching "The 40 Year Old Virgin" but instead we went into the arcade beside...Keke...
Laogong then caught a big Tigger for me cuz there were so many girls with their boyfriends, holding a Tigger...I got mine then we saw other couples got it as well, Laogong tried to catch another "Jumbo" for me but we gave up and headed back home finally...Laogong had wanted to spend the night at my house but his sister wanted to go swimming the next day, Laogong had to go home so that when his sister goes out, there would be a person to take care of his grandma...Shrugs* So Laogong took me back to his house and we both rested for a short while before we went out on Laogong's bicycle to buy nasi lemak cuz he was hungry...We all got to sleep at around 4plus in the morning and his sister slept in the same room together with us, to prevent their grandma from talking much...Gees*
27october2005,2005
Diven then said he wanted to take a cab, so Robby and I tag along and we all alighted at different places...Finally, at around 5plus am, I was home...My legs were hurting, I had blisters on both of my feet...I reeked of cigarettes' smell but was too lazy to go for a bath so I hit my pillows and slept through out...
23october2005, Sunday
I went to Marina Square(Sakae Sushi) to meet TeckSheng and the rest of my seniors(Zhi Wei, Ling jie, Jeremy and Fiona) to celebrate TeckSheng and XuXian's birthday...Its was awkward for me when I reached there because it's been a really long time since I've last seen and heard from them...I was kinda quiet but they managed to warm me up and I chatted with them too...
After our early lunch at Sakae, we headed down to Carrefour as Fiona wanted to get a shoe rack...Then we decided to head back to MS to eat ice cream, but then Fiona and Ling jie saw the Lingerie fair held in the atrium on the 1st floor so they rushed down immediately...The rest of the guys joked and laughed and I walked with them till the 1st floor and then went to join Fiona and Ling jie...The 3 of us talked and then chose our favourite designs and paid for them, then joined the guys again and walked back to MS...
We window-shopped around MS and then got to StarBucks to chill...All of us chatted and I too listended to them talk about their life and I was happy to know that they're all doing well...We sat there for nearly 2hours before leaving in Fiona's car and headed back to Jurong Point...Upon reaching Jp, Fiona and I bought shoes, she bought for herself pumps while I bought black ballet shoes which were meant for my work...Fiona had to leave after that so we bid her goodbye and continued walking around Jp...I was supposed to meet Cindy at 7pm but she had changed to 6pm and I didn't made it in time, so I joined TeckSheng, Ling jie and XuXian for dinner at Long John's...After our dinner, we parted each other and the rest of them went home while I stayed on at Jp to wait for Ah ger...
Ah ger came together with Jieyi after a short while and we walked around Jp some more, I bought a Loreal Pure Purple hair dye for myself after I sought their opinions and we took the bus back to Boon Lay...We all went to the hawker centre and ate nasi lemak then Ah ger and Jieyi came to my house...I did manicure and nail art for Jieyi as Ah ger wanted to see how it was done, and I dyed my hair afte finishing the manicure for Jieyi...Ah ger and Jieyi followed me into the kitchen and saw how I dyed my own hair, ah ger also helped me out a little and after 2hours later, vooom!!!! My hair is in a brand new color, REDish Purple !! lols...
Ah ger helped my blowed dry my hair and we went out to go to ah ger's house, she bathed and took some money then we went to 7-11 to buy cup noodles...We sat around the playground near my block and chatted the night away, it was fun and time really passed...I only went home at around 7am in the morning and slept once I hit my bed....
21october2005, FridayLaogong's off day again...I woke up at 6plus in the morning that day to make tonic soup for Laogong...Then I played Maple for awhile before Laogong came and then fetched me back to his house...
We went out at 4plus in the afternoon to go to Bugis, cuz Laogong wanted to get the "rs-mmc" for his new phone N7610...We fell out at Sim Lim Square because of me again...Apparently, I got angry at Laogong for buying a 70bucks "rs mcc"..I told Laogong not to buy it but he chose to turn a deaf ear on me, so I walked out on him and stormed out of Sim Lim Square...I was fumming all the way when I got out Sim Lim Square, Laogong smsed me and asked me where I was...I ignored his smses but bumped into him outside Sim Lim Square, Laogong grabbed my hand and asked me what I wanted from him...I kept quiet and tried to make my way to the mrt station, along were shoutings and strugglings between me and Laogong...
Laogong then pulled me aside and we quarrelled even more, with a lot of passer-bys staring...I walked off again and went to take the mrt, I was really mad and sad so I did not really board the train...Silly Laogong thought I was no longer at the station so he took the train, all the way to Tiong Bahru...Laogong had only knew I had'nt left Bugis mrt station at all when I smsed him, Laogong was also fumming but still came looking for me...I remained silent and got out of the station with Laogong, he too kept quiet...I sat down at one of the benches along side of the bus stop at Bugis and Laogong stood beside...Laogong and I quarrelled again and I cried a few times, dragging and dragging the time...
I had wanted to forgive him and continue spending the rest of the night peacefully but I could'nt, the more I talked to Laogong the more he retaliates...Laogong's retaliation had only made me more angry and sad...Once again I got up and walked back to the mrt station, Laogong tried to stop me again but eventually relented and gave me back my card...I did'nt wanted him to follow behind me so then we quarrelled again in the station, with a lot of people walking by and staring...I could'nt care or give a damn about those pests so I cried in the public, Laogong standing by my side...
Laogong kept asking me to go have dinner with him so I did in the end, but then again instead of heading into the V8, I went shopping...I thought Laogong would come pay for my clothes so that I can find an excuse for myself to cease the anger inside, but Laogong was ignorant...I continued being difficult and only went to the foodcourt with Laogong after a long shopping trip...Laogong asked me what I wanted to eat but I kept quiet all the while until late night then I said I wanted "Fish & Chips"...Laogong and I ate the same food and then we went off, I was still pissed off...We never talked along the way, I went into Parco and sat near the fountain...Laogong was getting lethargic and pleaded with me to go home with him...I ignored him and then walked to the arcade at Parco...I thought Laogong would bring me there and try to catch a plush toy to hoax me but he did'nt so I went there myself...I left him at the fountain alone, I soon recieved Laogong's call and I told him where I was...It was only then, Laogong had knew what to do...But I could'nt care more or less about him and I digged my wallet for coins and tried to catch one plush toy myself...Eventually I caught a "Marie" kitty myself, Laogong by my side watching...But i was'nt the least happy, then we left the place and boarded the last train back to Boon Lay...
Laogong and I took the bus back to my house and I went to sleep immediately, only to wake up in the late morning and not seeing Laogong by my side sleeping...But there was a "big breakfast" set placed on my mini table...I checked my handphone for Laogong's smses but there was none from him...I smsed him in the end and Laogong appeared minutes later in my house...I ignored Laogong still and he cried...Only then did we made up and I got Laogong to stop crying, then we went to Jurong Point and get Teck Sheng's (my secondary sch senior) present...We went back to Laogong's house after I had bought the present...I fiddled around with his handphone while he had gone for a shower hoping to find an sms which says that he is not going to work tonight...I know I'm selfish but I really wanted Laogong to accompany me more, I'll be starting work very soon and I could'nt really spend the day before with Laogong nicely...But I knew it deep inside my heart that Laogong would definately go for his work...
Then I happened to see the note he had typed into his handphone and I cried upon reading it...This was roughly what he typed inside:
Dear, Cheryl..I've always loved you and I know that I am always bringing you unhappiness and disasters...The things I've bought, you can keep them as gifts from me...I would send the singtel bill to your house every month..I hope someone else could be able to bring you happiness..
I was completely shattered when I read it, my tears flowing uncontrollably...Just then, Laogong came into the room and saw me holding on to his handphone, crying at the same time...Laogong panicked and asked me what happened...I refused to tell him anything but continued crying...I was shocked that Laogong had actually had the message ready and that he was ready to leave me alone...I knew I had always been wildful and my temper is a really bad one to boot, but "you" should know that I never meant my words before, not now and not in the future too...I could'nt believe my eyes, and I thought Laogong had really loved me...I still feel sad after Laogong found out himself that I had looked into his "note" but I never admit it when Laogong questioned me about it...Laogong accompanied me until 7plus in the night, walked me back to place and I saw him off in a taxi...Laogong ensured me that the "note" was not real and that it was only typed in the morning when he was really upset...But i guessed if I had continued ignoring Laogong, the "note" might be send to me...I still feel depressed as I typed out this entry...
I think it's time that I should pay the pychiatrist a visit to determine if I'm a despondent soon...
19october2005, Wednesday
Laogong came to my house and fetched my to his house then I accompanied Laogong till he fall asleep...I prepared myself and went out of Laogong's house to take the mrt to Tiong Bahru and meet Weichee...It was the day I was going to for my interview at Zouk, WeiChee was gonna bring my down to Zouk...Lolx...
I reached Tiong Bahru at around 3.05pm and waited for Weichee to come then we went to Zouk on bus 195...I was kinda excited and nervous, wondering how my interview would turn out...We finally reached Zouk, Weichee then bought me up to the office and I filled out a application form there...I waited quite awhile before Weichee bought me down to WineBar and I met the in-charge for a interview...I could'nt remember her name, grins* but she was a really nice person...she talked to me about the job scope in Zouk and made me felt at ease...I was'nt nervous at all!! lolx...
Alas, the interview was a success!! I never imagined that it would go on this smoothly, nonetheless I was thrilled on the inside when she told me to report for work this coming Wednesday...I'm gonna start work soon!! Yeah!! Thinking that I'll be joining my group of pals at WineBar soon really made me so happy!! lolx...
18October2005, Tuesday
Sorry for the late updates guys!! Here's the latest news about my life....hahaha...
Last night I stayed up at Ah ger's house till the wee hours mapling all the while, it's been a really long time since I've last went to her house...Ah ger slept around 2hours before waking up again and then we went to Mac's to eat our breakfast...We went back to our own house after finishing our food...
Upon reaching home, I saw Laogong sitting in the living room waiting for me to come back...grins* Laogong's handphone had broken down completely, so he had to get a new handphone...I bathed myself and changed while Laogong used my laptop to check out what handphone he wanted...Laogong had wanted to buy Nokia N91 but the launch date has been delayed time and again so he had no choice but to get another phone...We went down to Jurong Point and looked at various handphones but none had actually caught Laogong's eye...Laogong then caught a bear for his sister and we went back to Boon Lay...
Laogong and I decided that Nokia 7610 would be fine and so we went to his friend's handphone shop and bought the brand new phone...
14october2005, Friday
I woke up at 12plus tt day and quickly got the ingredients ready for the soup, I wanna let Laogong drink...I let the soup cooked for a good 3hrs then did I only went out of my house at around 2plus in the afternoon to Laogong's house...
Laogong got to prepare the moment I reached his house, he drank my soup and then we went down to Jurong Point to meet up with Cindy, Elene, Sky and Wei CHee...We've all decided to meet Elene on that day to pass her presents and also a post celebration for her birthday...We all went to Mac's and had our dinner there then went to watch "Deuce Bigalow, The European Gigolo "...It was a hilarious movie, we laughed all the way...After the movie, we went down to Mac Cafe and had a long chatting session...We all parted at around 11.30pm...I hope we could gather together again and perhaps go sing k the next time round!! haha..
15october2005, SatLaogong stayed at my house the night before and we both woke up at around 9plus in the morning today...I had wanted to go to Kbox yesterday night but could'nt so I told Laogong that I wanted him to bring me to Kbox...keke...Laogong told me the night before that if he could wake up in the morning the next day, we'll go...And so we did!! lol...Laogong made me a Kbox card and made one for himself too...We sang all the way from 11am to 2pm, keke...Then after Laogong said he wants to bring me go ice-skating...But i declined cuz there were too many people at the ice-skating rink, it would be so difficult to skate...
So we went off and go window-shopping instead...I walked into a perfume store and helped Laogong to choose a perfume...David Beckham has just launched his new line of perfume called : Instinct...It smelled really good and manly so well, very much like Beckham...Lol...But I chose Issey Miyake for Laogong in the end cuz I liked it more...Even though it did'nt smelled manly enough but it was just what I would like to smell from Laogong...keke...Laogong bought the Issey Miyake perfume at 58bucks...Then we went to IMM for our lunch...
We had japanese food at the food court in IMM, which was quite delicious...After our late lunch, Laogong and I went to Daiso and had a walked inside before setting back home...Laogong and I took the mrt back to Jp...I saw a watch at one of the push-carts which I thought was unique but Laogong did'nt liked it at all, so we went off...On the way into Jp, I asked Laogong again and he said that it looked ugly...I did'nt not say anything then Laogong said I don't know how to use a watch properly...I got angry, what does he mean by that? Am I stupid? I'm stupid so I don't even know how to use a watch...Ya...I quarrelled with Laogong and walked back to my house with him following behind...I knew he was has to rush for work but I could'nt care less...
Now we're alright again...haiz...Another day has passed...
13Oct2005, Thursday
I woke up around 10plus in the morning and the first person to come to my sight was Laogong...After a fierce quarrel with him the night before, he had appeared in front of me again...I was happy to see Laogong again...This time he waited patiently for me to wake up and get myself ready...Laogong apologised to me and said that he knows he has given me quite a scare...I've long forgiven him...
So sorry Laogong, that I've disappointed you in the first place, I know I should have tried to change my temper but I still need alot of time to do so...No empty promises, just wanna try to change myself for you but I still cant do it...
Laogong had the day's newspaper ready for me cuz he knows I'll go buy it later on...I'm glad he understands me so well....Then Laogong said: "Let's go eat breakfast at Mac's, alright?" in a chirpy way...I agreed and we went to Jp' Mac to have our first meal of the day...
I really do love you, don't even suspect me for I will never ever stop loving you...If i do say or tell you that I do not love you anymore, that would only be a white lie...I would have only said that to make you pay attention to me and see how sad I am...
Laogong had taken out the Mac's coupon from the newspaper he bought earlier on, so we had our breakfast with free hotcakes...But the we did'nt eat that much, won't be able to finish that much amount of food too...The hotcakes we decided to bring back for Laogong's mummy and sister...After purchasing our meals, Laogong told me that he needs to go to the loo for a short while...I waited for Laogong to come back from the toilet for a long 30minutes or so...I was wondering what had happened to Laogong so I called him on his mobile but he did not answer the call..So I waited until he suddenly reappear and had a plastic bag in his hands...
Laogong handed the bag to me and I took out a teddy bear wearing a tee which says: "I need your kisses now and forever" I thought Laogong had bought the teddy but he said he caught it at the arcade...Which explains why he had been in the "toilet" for so long...Grins* I was so happy...Thanks Laogong!!
I don't know why, don't ask me too...
Living on is, but a misery for me...
Perhaps, I derive happiness from making a fool out of him...
But then again, I'm still sad...
Drown in a sorrowful pool of blood...
Why must we meet in the first place?
Why cant God just arrange a "serenaid" for me?
I cant bring myself to face him...
I just could'nt do it...
Am I dreaming or pretending to be in a dream?
I know nothing to aim for...
What else can I aim for?
A good life or a life in hell?
Is'nt it funny? How fate can change one's life?
My life has changed but it is always in a mess...
I'm not sure whether to line up these messed-up pieces,
or to just leave it as it always was...
I feel pain all over me,
I feel pain all the time...
I'm just a nobody to everybody...
So why not just continue drowning?
Immersing myself in a blood of sorrow...
12oct2005, WednesdayI had a really bad morning today!! Had a really fierce fight with Laogong...I was the one who picked on Laogong first and eventually it got worst...
I overslept and did'nt knew Laogong had called me on my hp then Laogong showed up at my house...I was really tired due to mapling the night before so I could'nt really get myself to wake up at once...Laogong was probably by my side for a short 15minutes or so, then he told me that he was going off...I thought Laogong was pulling my leg as usual as to get me to wake up, but when I woke up finally, Laogong was gone...
I smsed Laogong to ask him where he was and wanted him to come back to my house...Laogong did'nt want to and asked me go to his house myself...I went beserk and started smsing Laogong vulgurities, nothing could stop me from being so "hot"...Laogong had no choice but to come back to my house and fetch me, reluntantly...I ignored Laogong all the while then went out of my house, took the lift down without waiting for him...He yelled Ch*e B*e at me when he caught up with me...I was crushed...
Laogong was pissed off by my atittude that he rode off back to his house without telling me...Stupid me, thought that Laogong would follow behind...In the end, I stood somewhere on the pathway near his block and cried...I called Laogong and he scolded me...I was so upset that I could'nt say anything but only "wo qu si ge ni kan" (translate: I'll attempt suicide, you just wait and see) Alright, this line might be a little too scary but I did'nt really meant it...I only had the intentions of scaring Laogong, making him worry and go look for me...
I walked back to my house, crying along the way...Laogong smsed me "where are you now? F*cking B*tch..." I was so upset, I did'nt reply his messages...Minutes after I've reached home, Laogong came...We both yelled at the top of our lungs at each other, then I saw Laogong raised his hand as if he wanted to slap me...I broke down completely...I told Laogong to slap me if he really wants to, and if he did, it'll be all over between the both of us...(How could you even bear to do this to me? Had you no idea that my heart was completely shattered the moment you raised ur hand? You've promised before never to lay your hands on me, but you almost did it today...)
The both of us kept quiet then Laogong carried me into my room with my struggling, crying...Laogong began to apologise to me and wiped my tears plus "mucus" off...We made up but I still could'nt bring myself to talk to Laogong so we both remained quiet on the way back to his house...Laogong got to sleep soon and I looked in the newspaper for job opportunities...
I arranged to meet up with Ah Ger to go catch a movie before I go for an interview, but we both were late for the afternoon show, so we headed down to Orchard...We reached the place for my interview at 5pm after it had ended, Ah Ger and I went to Far East...I was'nt at all happy but still hid my feelings and tried to enjoy myself...I tried to indulge myself in a shopping spree and I did...After buying Elene's presents, Ah Ger and I continued walking around Far East and then we went into New World Order...I saw a cute tank top which actually cames in couple ones so I bought the same design for myself and 1 for Laogong...
TO: Whoever it may concerns...I was confused...Here am I so upset and angry and so unsatisfied with him but yet I still care for him, buying stuffs for him...In hope that he'll be happy when I give it to him...Am i hopeless? I really have no idea...I just don't know what I'm doing...Perhaps, I don't even know if I've really loved him before...Maybe I was looking for only a companion to play and fool around with...(What??) I'm such a b*tch, I know...
After that, we went to TopShop at Wisma Atria...I bought 2boxers for myself and a set of boxers for Laogong at TopMan...Ah Ger and I went off at about 8plus in the night...Then we took the bus back to our homes...
08october2005continue...Laogong told me that WeiChen had called him up in the morning, Laogong said he had declined to meet WeiChen cuz he thought I might be unhappy...Silly Laogong, I told Laogong to go meet WeiChen since they had'nt met up for a very long time...So Laogong and I went down together to Jurong Point to meet him...
Laogong and I had a shock after we saw WeiChen, he got thinner and also his skin condition had kinda worsen...But then we got used to it after awhile, we all sat at Coffee Bean and had our drinks...The 3of us chatted quite abit, then I wanted to go buy some cosmetics so we went to SaSa then Red Earth...WeiChen left us half way and I continued shopping for my things...I got myself 2eye shadow pots and a blusher all from Red Earth, wahahaah...had actually wanted to pay for those myself but then Laogong dished out his card and so he paid for my things...lol..Cosmetics are really expensive, I had only bought 2 eye shadow pots and a blusher but already they costed $40! wahahha...But if i had bought other brands like Anna Sui, Shiseido, Shu Umera or even Dior..I had a Shu Umera blusher but lucky i did not replenish the brand, whahaha..if not there would be another hole in my pocket!! keke... It would have cost me even more!! lol...Thanks, Laogong, for paying for my cosmetics!
08oct2005Had a tiff with Laogong the night before, sigh*...I'm throwing my tantrums again...I could'nt help it and just lose my head...I made Laogong cried because I ignored him in e middle of the night, did'nt let him hug me to sleep and even went to play maple...In the end, I knew Laogong was crying so I stopped playing and hoaxed him instead...I did'nt know how to make him happy but only to ask him to stop crying...Sorry, Laogong!! I admit that it's all my fault k...Should'nt have been so bad to you but I don't know how to control my anger...Argh!! Guess I'll hafta attend anger management classes...=.="
I cried too when I saw Laogong crying because "heartpain" lor...It was "I" who bullied Laogong but then I feel sad also...Kinda regretted treating Laogong so coldly at that time so I cried a little too...But then all turned out to be fine after awhile...lol...Laogong looked liked a baby when he stopped crying and told me why he had cried earlier on...So cute!! lol...Laogong became my baby, haha...Cuz i hugged him like hugging a baby, grins* Anyway, Laogong and I kissed and made up then I too said sorry to him...We only went to sleep at about 4plus in e night!! hahaha...Talked about burning the midnight oil!! lol...
7th Oct 2005
It's been long since I've blogged, haha...So now a new entry, enjoy!!
Laogong's off day again!! Just days after his 22nd birthday, Laogong had his off day spent together with me again..lol...It was a great day cuz Laogong actually took me on a shopping trip, hehehe...Laogong and I walked down to Jurong Point from his house then Laogong bought me into the arcade at JP again because he said he wanted to catch the pooh bear for me as promised...I was happy cuz in the end Laogong caught it again..Then we headed for Bugis..
We reached Bugis at around 5plus so we decided to walk around Parco before going up to find Coanne...Laogong bought me down to the arcade in Parco and caught a big pink colored bunny!! lol..Laogong probably spent about 5bucks and when he caught the big pink bunny, there were quite a crowd surrounding us...I saw 2teenage girls gasped, the rest of which are guys were shocked too...Even I yelled in amazement...It really does feels great the moment I saw Laogong being able to catch the bunny...grins*
After that we went up to my old work place and I sorted things out with Coanne, a pity then when i knew all my painstakingly hand-drawn nail arts were thrown away(partly because of the bitch who backstabbed me)...But then Coanne and I talked in peace, she was still as polite and cheerful...I saw the bitch back at my old workplace, her bloody back was facing me...I was waiting for her to turn back and look at me, but the bitch did'nt even had the bloody guts to...Well anyway, I don'nt wanna be bothered with such a tramp..So Laogong and I left my old work place and continued our spending the rest of the day walking around Bugis street and all..
Laogong and I walked around looking at the clothes in Bugis Street and suddenly Laogong saw a black top and got me to try it on...I did and actually liked it as much as Laogong did, we seldom go eye to eye with my kind of dressing sense but that time was exceptional...lol...Laogong paid for my top and then we went back to Parco's Ajisen to have our dinner...Laogong and I had a really full dinner over there, then we went up to The Edge...Laogong saw another shirt and skirt combination and got me to try it on..lol...Laogong was such a darling on that day, he liked me wearing it and I liked it myself too so again he paid for it...hehehe...I know Laogong always says as long as I'm happy he'll be happy too...And I was!! lol...I love you, Laogong!! muacks...
03-10-05, Monday
hehehe, Laogong and I woke up at 11am in the morning and then we got ourselves prepared to go to JB...Before we went out, I gave Laogong his second present but Laogong did not open it cuz he wanted to see it at night ...hehehe...We wore the same tee that we've bought at Far East long ago...keke...We reached JB at around 12plus and the first stop was City Square, we had decided to take our lunch first but ended up shopping instead..hahah...Laogong bought 2tees and then we walked around more and Laogong bought 2more tees, 1 for me and 1for himself plus a bilabong board shorts...Laogong was too thin, cuz the sales guy had to keep finding the smallest size of boardshorts he has...keke...In the end, Laogong finally had the right size of boardshorts...I wish I could make Laogong fitter, hahah...Then I bought a pair of Dc skate shoes for my brother and a keychain for Laogong...I also bought a Nail-up magazine(Taiwan Version) at Popular which costed me only 10rm... keke...
After spending almost the whole afternoon there, Laogong and I went to had nasi briyani for our lunch opposite City Square...The food was still quite nice, then Laogong looked for public phone hoping to call up my dad and Rennis cuz they were finding us...But there was not even a single public phone until we went to Holiday Plaza...
Laogong got a little irrtated cuz Rennis did'nt answer his calls and had made him wasted his coins...Laogong talked to me in a bad tone and I told him not to vent his anger on me just because he could'nt find them...Laogong then talked to me in a better way and said he did'nt meant it...I too let the matte rest and went into the Comic shop to get my comics...hehehe...I took 2 sets of comics and 2 short comics, there was 1more set which I had wanted but the first one was gone..argh!! The sales guy told me that there'll only be another incoming stock after Chinese New year nexr year...haiz..Guess I have only to wait for now...Laogong paid for my comics then we went off to get out of JB...
We went to Jurong Point to meet up with Rennis and Emeleen...Had our dinner together with Rennis and Emeleen at Crystal Jade then walked around Jp for awhile before we finally got back to Laogong's house...Laogong and I then walked back to my house cuz my dad had bought a cake for Laogong...Laogong was so embarressd when my dad, my brother and me sang him a birthday tune..keke...I guess I've gave Laogong a happy birthday celebration...I love you, laogong!! Happy 22nd birthday!!
Laogong took 2days leave for his birthday, keke...The first night for me to bring him for treat and the second day for us to go to JB again... We've actually quarrelled the day before Sunday or rather I was the one who had been throwing tantrums cuz I wanted to watch "Corpse Bride"...In the end, Laogong brought me to Jurong East to watch the movie just to please me...I was happy to be able to watch the movie, "Corpse Bride" is a beautiful animation...Or at least I thought so, haha...But then after the show, I was still unable to be happy cuz Laogong told me that he'll only meet me in the afternoon cuz he wants to meet up with his friend in the morning...I felt sad so I did'nt talked much...The night we went back to my house and Laogong went to sleep first while I played Maple until I was tired... The next morning which is Sunday, Laogong and I woke up early and went to the market to have breakfast...I thought everything was alright already but then again, was ruined again by me...Haiz...I knew that I was being unreasonable but I could'nt control my own temper, I only knew how to blame Laogong...I was really upset that I almost did'nt wanna meet Laogong but somehow I found myself taking the bus then seeing Laogong...I guess it was all well in the end, Laogong went to catch a winnie bear to give me a surprise...I was happy... Laogong and I then went to Marina Square to buy the pair of slip-ons I wanted...The sales girl even gave Laogong discount when he paid for my shoes...keke...Then after, I took Laogong to Marche in orchard...Lol...We had a good time over there, ate till we're very full...Laogong was happy, i could tell...I enjoyed myself too...I brought Laogong to Heeren after our dinner and we took a picture there...hehe... We went back to Laogong's house after walking around orchard, cuz there was still a surprise for him back home...hehe...We reached home early so I waited until it was 12am then got Laogong into his room...I quickly prepared the cake for Laogong then stood in the living room, Laogong came out of his room and saw me with the birthday cake...Laogong was really happy cuz he never had a cake for his birthday for a very long time...Then I handed Laogong his first birthday present, a model of the bike which he liked..."Honda Repsol" Is this spelling correct? haha, I don't know..I only know this is Laogong's dream bike...keke..After finishing the cake, I spent the night at Laogong's house cuz we were going to Johor Bahru on his actual birth date...hehehe...
02-10-05, Sunday