Y Tuesday, January 24, 2006Y
3:03 AM
24January2006, Tuesday
Today, I overslept...Laogong came and woke me up after he had seen a chinese sinsei for a follow-up check up on his sprained ankle...The night before, I told Laogong that I've gotta work on the 1st day of Chinese New Year...I've also told him that nobody had informed me at all that I was gonna work until I heard it from other colleagues' conversations...Laogong was really pissed off and angry on my behalf , saying that the management was lousy and all...I had nothing to say but to keep quiet and listen to Laogong scolding them, Laogong was really fierce and kept telling me that I should'nt have been so nice to them...I almost wanted to cry out while listening to Laogong but I refrained from it...Laogong knew that I've extended my last day to stay and help them out till Febuary 11th and now Laogong thinks that it's because I'm leaving soon, that's why they purposely scheduled me for work on the 1st day...I don't think they would be so cruel cuz I believe they're still quite good to me...I'm glad that Laogong cares for me, but on the other hand...I'm having dilemmas...
Just this afternoon, I've told my dad that I've gotta work on the 1st day of CNY and immediately I was reprimanded by him...Dad said that I should'nt have worked at this kinda place in the first place, cuz I had qualifications and computer knowledge...Blah, blah, blah, etc...I could say nothing but keep mum...I've told dad before that I might go back to work as a casual labour for them, but he also scolded me saying that I should be getting a better job not just work one day...He even said that if I were to get red packets on that day, it is actually "peanuts"..."SO WHAT? IT'S NOT AS IF THE RED PACKET GIVEN IS V.BIG..." was his words...Now, my dad is forcing me to make a decision, either I quit immediately or he'll quit on my behalf...If I insist on working further, he'll definately blow his top off, then things will get very ugly and I'll also have a bad bad CNY...He is totally not satisfied with me still having to slog on this day...He is my biological father, I don't have the guts and reasons to refused him at all...What am I to do? I really don't want things to turn out this way, as I thought in the first place, I could score a chance to work on the eve of CNY instead of...Haiz...It's really troubling me...Laogong also wants me to make a decision and be firm...I need to talk to Elsie or Ah Kai this Wenesday when I go for work again...I'm really sorry if I've let them all down but I've got no other choices or ways to go anymore...I know they've been really nice but who else can direct or tell me what to do? I did'nt want all this to end in a ugly way, I would still wanna return to WineBar again with them still treating me as their friend not foe...I've really got no choice...Cant anyone help? I'm going crazy already...
This is a bad start for me in the beginning of year 2006, I really cant bear to bring up this matter to Elsie or Ah kai at all...I'm really upset...I'm forced to the limits...I'm so tired...So very sorry...I guess nobody would understand my feelings, except for Laogong...I could really use shoulder of Laogong's to cry on...Can anyone lift this emotional burden off me?