Y Thursday, December 15, 2005Y
11:15 PM
13December2005, Tuesday
Laogong's into his second day of "MC"...Laogong felt better but was still sick, nonetheless that did not affected our pre-planned "JB" trip...We both woke up at around 7.30am in the morning due to his father's loud hailer-liked voice...Laogong and I bathed then went out at around 9plus, I went home to change while Laogong went to Jurong West to help his father pay for or change particulars of the season parking...
I changed then went out to meet Laogong so we could have our breakfast before going to meet Cindy and KuanYee...I recieved a sms from Cindy then, so I called her back and she told me that Ky's passport was not with him, they had to wait for his father to go back home and hand Ky his passport...Cindy postponed the time to 11.45, so I relaxed and took my time..Laogong, then also smsed me and told me that he'll order duck noodles for me first and, I replied telling him that I wanted a mixture of noodles..Laogong did not reply...I was not really happy so when I reached, and saw Laogong sitting down at a table, I went towards him and slightly threw my mobile on the table...I was not even able to say a word then he started by telling me to throw away the bowl of noodles if I did'nt want to eat it...Laogong said I was being difficult, that I was'nt like this in the past, and whatever he had ordered in the past for me, I could just eat so for now why could'nt I shut up and eat as well...I was furious upon hearing all these, I argued with Laogong until he kept quiet and we both ate our noodles then went off...
As I was angry, I did not inform him about meeting Cindy at a later time...So Laogong presumed that we had to rush home, to put the newly changed season-parking stuffs back, then rush to meet Cindy and Ky...I delibrately took a detour and waited for a bus while Laogong wanted to take a cab, Laogong got fed up but could do nothing and waited for the bus as well...We did not talk on the bus, till we've reached the bus stop near his block then Laogong started walking at a very fast pace...I was not happy that he did not wait for me so I asked to wait for me and, we could walk back together...But Laogong did not cared much and scolded me instead...
Somehow, the both of us got into a very heated fight and I even threw my handphone twice on the floor...We shouted at each other in public, people stared but we did not cared much too...I could still remember very clearly that Laogong hurdled verbal abuse at me, I did not do this to him at all so why did he had to be so cruel? Laogong knew that I've never liked him scolding vurglurities but he has done it twice already, he disappointed me very much...I ran after Laogong, wanting to beat him and do anything I could to make him feel pain but I fell down and Laogong just stared at me...Laogong did'nt cared if I was hurt at all, and for the very, really first time, Laogong shouted at me, saying that he will slap me if I continued being so unreasonable...Finally, I could'nt hold back my tears anymore and broke down...I went berserk and kept taunting him to beat me but Laogong did not...For the second time, he walked out on me, ignoring every words of mine...I was so hurt and angry at the same time, I almost wanted to break off with him again but did not mentioned it...I even threw the watch that he had bought for me so he would stop and come back, he shouted at me again...
We kept shouting at each other, then an auntie in a nearby child-care centre looked at us...I was so pissed off that I shouted at her too, telling her not to be such a busybody...It was so irritating, then she stopped afterwards...Laogong started to put my watch back to pieces then he went off again towards his house, I was depressed cuz I've seem to be transparent to him so I threatened Laogong that I would throw away his passport if he still wanted to walk...It worked and Laogong came back, then we both went back to his house and I kept quiet all the while...Laogong became normal again and told me not to be angry again, how could he expect me to be alright in just a flash? Laogong did not even felt regretful for the things he had done previously...What I had gained in the end for taking care of him the past 3days when he was really sick, was to be yelled at with tons of vurglurities...This is the worst fight we've ever had after a few weeks of peacefulness...
Somehow, I did not continued being angry the whole day and tried to be nice...I controlled myself and refrained myself from being angry, then we went to meet up with Cindy and Ky...I'm no longer the "really bad-tempered me" already, for you, I'm willing to change...Because of you, I hated myself more then ever...