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Y Thursday, October 13, 2005Y
2:44 AM
i'm feeling pain...
I don't know why, don't ask me too...
Living on is, but a misery for me...
Perhaps, I derive happiness from making a fool out of him...
But then again, I'm still sad...
Drown in a sorrowful pool of blood...

Why must we meet in the first place?
Why cant God just arrange a "serenaid" for me?
I cant bring myself to face him...
I just could'nt do it...
Am I dreaming or pretending to be in a dream?
I know nothing to aim for...
What else can I aim for?
A good life or a life in hell?

Is'nt it funny? How fate can change one's life?
My life has changed but it is always in a mess...
I'm not sure whether to line up these messed-up pieces,
or to just leave it as it always was...
I feel pain all over me,
I feel pain all the time...
I'm just a nobody to everybody...
So why not just continue drowning?
Immersing myself in a blood of sorrow...