9August2005, Evening 7pm

I quarrelled with Laogong again, after a peaceful month...All because of a small matter, I threatened him with a break-up just as he was about to go for work...I 'don't know what to do anymore but to put an end to all of these miseries...I no longer feel sad or regrettful nor do i wished for us to be together again, he does'nt listens to my words...What can i say, nothing i guess...I know he still loves me and wants me but I've already made my words very clear and I don't think i will go back on my words anymore...I'll dead-serious about the break-up this time...I don't think I need anymore explainations from anyone, I've given you my all and never possibly can get them back already...Their all yours to keep...

I'm single from this very day onwards, I won't go into another relationship anymore for I will keep you in heart...I will keep all the good memories and reminise them If i ever have the time...I will carry on in my life to struggle for my future, please move on to get a better woman to be with you in future...I will remember how you've planned and told me about what you want for our future and keep them as a part of my memories as well...I will remember how you've cared for and love me for who i am, I thank you for doing so much...I really appreciate it all...I know i can never repay you but i hope you will find a good wife in future and I will bless you both with happiness...

Tears I'm shedding now does not mean that i'm sad or heartbroken...It only means that i crying because I've chosen to lose a precious gem...It only means that I'm crying because you can finally move on without me being a nuisance in your life anymore...It only means that i'm crying because I'm happy I made this choice...Please don't feel sad or unbearable...Do let go of this relationship to lift a heavy burden off from the both of us...For i will certainly keep this wonderful moment of my life forever in my heart....Please don't cry for me or be disturbed at work anymore, cuz I'm not worthy of your love to do so anymore...

TAKE CARE MY BELOVED!! =) (for the very last time)